2 years in remission!

On the anniversary of the day I was told everything was ok - what is commonly known as 'in remission' - I reflect on the past 2 years.
In the week where I was awarded 'Miss Slinky 2013' at Slimming World and when I reached my target on losing 2 stone 11 pounds; it's very hard sometimes to realise where I have been and how hard it's been. It becomes a huge blur....

The last two weekends I have been out with friends - celebrating a wedding and a birthday. Not only have I felt comfortable in my skin, but I have felt confident to speak and socialise. Things feel different. It's a combination of the weight loss and the improvement of my mental health.
Depression is frightening. It takes hold of you in more ways than you could ever realise. That combined with 'the cancer cloak' (described beautifully by my friend Joan Cox on my Facebook page last week) that has covered me for so long. It's been a long hard road.

Last night, so many things felt wonderful. The things that happened were blatant and clear and the most amazing signs that I have come so far.....
...The freedom to sit in a restaurant and feel enough well in everyway to sit there. To have the energy to hold a conversation. To look in the eyes of your friends confidently and not feel embarrassed and self conscious. To stand at the table in a bar and not feel tired after 2 minutes. To be asked the question 'Do you want a chair Liz?' and to be able to say 'no I'm ok thank you', standing there and thinking 'I am well!'
Things that most people take for granted I guess. Not me.

So today I count all my blessings.
Today I think wow!
Today I look around me and fill up with emotion - I am here, I am well.

November 2013

Dec 2011

July 2011

after Anthony had shaved my hair xx